Ace Personal Trainer Certification…Ugh.

As I said in my About Me post, I signed up for the ACE Personal Trainer Certification Course last year. And as I said in Resolution Redux, I have been struggling with it. Well, that’s a lie…I had been struggling with it, so then I stopped struggling, i.e., gave up. I was an English/Sociology major for a good reason – basic incompetence at much else.  As a matter of fact, if one were to apply the Peter Principle, which holds that in a hierarchy, members are promoted so long as they work competently, eventually  being promoted to a position at which they are no longer competent (their “level of incompetence”), and there they remain, being unable to earn further promotions, I should still be sitting in a sixth grade classroom somewhere taking math and science classes. 

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But being a little more self aware than is sometimes comfortable (denial is a wonderful thing)  I recognize that I have a pattern of giving up when the going gets tough, and a real fear of failure. I thought I had progressed past it in the wisdom of my middle years but it has reared it’s ugly sad-assed little head again. Ugh. Personal growth is just so damn hard. Anyway, acknowledging you have a problem is the first step. That being said, I am going to take the more painful second step and refocus my energies on getting my certification, knowing that there is a (serious) possibility of failure, but  appreciating that failure, if it comes, will not kill me.

The certification I really want is called the Weight Management Specialty Certification, but to get that certification I first have to hold the PTC.  I will be the poster child for lifelong learning. Wish me well.  I am going to continue to try and post here at least once a week, but I am shifting my attention primarily to the course until I sit for the test. I will still be posting updates on Facebook and Twitter, so please follow me there. I can use all the support I can get.

Oh, and just a quick update on how I’m doing with my personal fitness goals, I am officially “strong like bull” and can almost lift the same weights I did in  my 30′s. I’ll get there on that one.

 As far as my drive to goal weight, here is my progress over the last five weeks:

-1.2

-.6

-.2

-.4

-1.6

for a total of 4 pounds. Tortoise and the hare, baby, tortoise and the hare. I am now 7.8 pounds from my goal. I will get there on that one too.My ankle might not allow me to do a half marathon. We are currently in negotiations.

Going to buy my road bike in the next couple of weeks and start training for a century ride. Am fairly certain that with enough work that too is an attainable goal.

The ACE certification…not so sure, but am going to give it the old college try.

Because FAILURE ISN’T FATAL!!! RAH! RAH! RAH!

Right?  :)